Candle light dinner.
i like like it..
when he looks at me straight in my eyes.. it always feel like its the last time that he would ever do that thing.
and when he studies me.. watching my every move.. it feels like whatever i do or how gross i may look.. in his eyes.. i am the most perfect thing ever.
he looks at me like i am the best art work ever created.
i just really like it.
a month after Six.
its indeed a perfect way to celebrate the day we admitted to ourselves that we really ain’t just friends.
dinala lang naman nya ako sa bahay nila. which really feels so good.. kasi hindi pa naman kami but he insist that i meet them. kahit may palusot na may gagawin daw kaming acads related.
tamang chill out den sa room nya.. which gives him plus pogi points. hahaha. we watched a movie. A LOT LIKE LOVE. nakakatuwa lang.. kasi kahit kami lang dalawa yung andun.. he never tried anything silly. for like. c’mon. he’s a guy after all. (i dont say na its fine with me but you know. guys. dumadamoves.. nagttry baka lulusot kahit hindi naman.. well. for me.. at least.) all he did was to really hold my hand and sweet kisses on my forehead.
haaay. i really am so happy today. :)
but here’s the funny part.
naalala ko lang.. June 6 to July 6. ugh. pamilyar na pamilyar. pati yung set-up naming dlawa na more than less than. nakakaloka. halos umuulit tlga ang mga bagay e. but i like it to be called.. redefining.
hindi umuulit.. nabibigyan lang tlga ako ng chance na mas pagandahin ang pag alala sa mga bagay bagay. :) kagaya na lang ng FEARLESS. :D :)
I really love the way things go and are redefined. its beautiful.
natutuwa ako. HAHAHA. promise. ang saya. finally. tagal kong hinintay ng moment na toh. yeeeeeeeeeeey!!! :D hahahahaha! ;) I MADE IT!!!!
ang sarap pala ng fresh milk sa 3am ng umaga. ;) kapartner ng tumblr. :D
naghihintay ako ng mga kasama. off to MANILA!! ;)
i dunno why but i really get excited pag monday na. emeghed. but for sure, its not an acad thing. yu kno. ;)
i always had these butterflies in my tumtum and my heart goes like badumdum. :3
ang sarap talaga ng fresh milk. srsly. ang refreshing.
oh baka dahil lang sa, bagong brand ng milk tong nasa ref namin ngayon. hindi sya nestle. milk magic ata.
hindi kagaya ng nakasanayan ko, pero masarap. ;)
People always think that when you sleep together, there’s always something that is happening in between the sheets and the bed. But let me tell you, It’s not always like that.
The feeling of actually hugging each other until you fall asleep, the warmth of each other’s breath, and the total happiness in the morning when you wake up right beside them. Everything may sound so good to be true, but sometimes it takes a lot of responsibility and love to be able to be as wholesome as possible. Sleeping with your special someone is one of the most heartwarming experiences you’ll ever have. No nothing, simply hugging and smiling yourself to sleep.
thiiiis. one wish. ;)
i have my own version of this.
"…it’s weird writing his name but it’s weirder that I am writing right now because of him. I barely touch this journal and not everyone in my life gets to be the main character in an entry."
ugh. the feels. -.-“
and then we have it.
a label that others are asking.
its really the time that i have to let go of what’s in the past. its enough. its really a great time to have but definitely not wise enough to stay.
i’ll change for the better na. i’ll fix all i need to fix. i’ll be my better self again. because now.. i again have the reason to.. there’s someone who really cares for me. who’s willing to step up and be my standards.
there’s a guy who makes me feel loved every single day. that i am worth it. i am worth and deserve all the efforts. that i am not just a simple lady.. but a girl to be loved and a woman to be protected.
a guy who’s open enough to change and adjust himself to be the man i need. :)
a guy who’s willing to hear all my rants. complain. and everything. have his own reactions but treats me like he agrees on my weird attitude.
a guy who’s complexity perfectly fits mine.
a guy who’s willing to beat up anyone, even himself, just to make his promises true.
that guy.. is my guy.. we may not be lovers.. but we are greater than friends. and we like the way we call us..
yung happiness na lasting.. na hindi pang isang araw lang.. yung kontento.
tagal na since huli kong naramdaman yun.
but i don’t know.
sguro kasi, hndi ko pa rin talaga magawang iopen ang heart ko para sa iba.
i become so scared. so afraid to try again.
because the last time i did.. it didnt work out so well.
sumasaya naman ako.. pero minsan, may mga time na bumabalik ako sa thought na..
sana siya yung nagpapasaya sa akin.
if only he got the guts and effort.
i deserve something more..
even if i feel strongly about him.. i wont settle for less than i deserve.
a two-year course.
"can you give me to years to win you?"
nakakatuwang marinig.. but its so uncertain.
parang in the end.. wala pa ring pupuntahan ang two years na yun..
but i wanna enjoy and cherish those two years.
gusto kong maging masaya..
and its hard for me to picture out the future yet.
too bad for me, because there is still that someone who i am picturing that with.
he never really goes away yet.
but i don’t think that someone can wait that long.
Its when you finally moved on to some stupid guy that didn’t see what’s the real you and its the time you made yourself better. A better person for someone to invest his/her love with. Its the time that you can say its the “new” me more stunning, stronger and wiser. Its the time when you forget…
sa mcdo nung nagpausod ako sa kabilang side kasi hindi kasya sa upuan ung iba pang uupo, nasa kabilang dulo kami pareho, kausap ang kapatid ko*
siya: dapat ako na lang umusod, ay hindi pala. gusto ko dito. namiss ko ate mo e.
me: *panting tenga. palakpak. cloud9. butterflies. kinilig* e wala e. :”>
waaaht! mas namiss ko naman siyaaa! grabity! :D ang dami naming hindi npapagkuentuhan. pero masaya ako kasi he, constantly, keeps on updating me on what’s going on with his life. and yung usapan namin dati, wala nagbago.
ramdam ko na ako pa rin ang precious jai niya. :)
yatot at abanog reunited! :D ;)
its inevitable. 3
Let’s face it. No matter how many times we kept on telling ourselves not to get attached. No matter how many notes/memo we create in our phone just to remind us that getting attached is just the same with hurting ourselves. No matter how loud your brain’s voice is, telling you to remember the lessons you’ve learned after getting attached. At the end of the day we still get attached anyway. It’s like a cycle. It’s inevitable.
The Legal Wife.
this made me more realize that love.. is not always perfect. minsan talaga may trials. big or small. meron. nakadepende lang talaga sa lovers kung hanggang saan nila ilalaban.
at walang relasyong magtatagal, kung may basta basta susuko sa dalawa. they are partners. thick or thin. they should fight for it.
the relationship will just end, if one of them stops fighting for the love that they have. or even. both.